hai assalamualaikum everyone :)

before that, i wanted to wish you guys salam jumaat since today is friday hee. may Allah swt bless you and me and grant His blessings in wtv we do. Ameen.

okay. so today, i wanted to talk about someone. who i literally had no idea that he would take so much part in my life? but im glad he did:)

for the first time i saw him in class (yes he's a classmate), id never thought that id be having something with him lol. and i cant remember what was my first impression towards him since i dont really keep my eyes on people unless they bother me lol okay

um he's kinda short? not that short really but he's very petite. just like me :) (yay we both have one common thing now :p) and he doesn't really like to smile? (yep that's really me) and also he has this kind of mysterious vibe?? um idk how to explain lol aaaa i suck at writing  hjdgsjgcfj

ok back to it. i still remember when we had our course orientation with seniors (orientasi yg konon nak merapatkan/berkenalan dgn senior2 lol). waktu tu kan awal2 lagi so macam tak berapa nak rapat. nak tegur pun malu malu taik padahal classmate sampai 3 tahun kot😂 and i still remember when i saw him, it was at night. during one's group introduction. we introduced ourselves and did this cheer song we made by our own (MALUNYA BILA INGAT BALIK AAAAAAAAA). and his group is called "tepu"? hahaha comel la bila ingat balik :p mine was watt 7 -________-

okay and coincidentally he was in the same group with my since-primary-school-friend-siap-duduk-sebelah-sebelah-and-he-even-liked-me-during-that-time🤣 tak sangka langsung sampai kat degree pun ti jumpa hang anas oii. untuk pengetahuan semua, aku dgn anas kawan dari sekolah rendah, pastu masuk smkbj sekali, sama kelas waktu form1 then he moved school, then waktu matriks satu kuliah, different class. AND NOW? classmate balik!! who knew?

um ok why am i talking about anas............. ...

ok back to my main point, him💕. waktu tu orientasi kelas kitorang dalam 3 hari jugak kot? (kan lama kan? over je senior2 ni) ok pastu during the last day, we had to perform in front of our own classmates, with the senior, the whole song. a song was given, and that song was picked randomly kut. dahlah dapat lagu shamsul yusof yang tah pape pastu nak kitorang menari pulak. lainla kalau dapat lagu blackpink in yOUURR AREAAAAA ke bangtan ke boleh la i menari. OH AND ALSO I LEAD THE DANCE HAJSHASJANS ya allah malunya aifaaaa what have you done to yrself😭

then we prepared ourselves, by practicing. i was grouped with wea, nawi, bila😘, tyah and aini. tapi aini demam, tyah balik, so tinggal la aku, bila, nawi dgn wea. haaa elok sangat 4 orang, menari pulak lagu sistar-shake it. taktaula kebetulan ke apa -_____- so dah practice2 tu, kitorang bergerak masuk auditorium. dahlah tempat tu kecik... dgn classmatesnya, dgn seniornya..... quite packed lol. pastu yada yada haaa masuklah turn utk kitorang "perform" depan orang ramai. group i group nombor 7 (that explains the 7 in watt 7 lol). ya auloh, ketar dia jgn cakap. macam nak perform ajl baq hang😂 i know iknow perform dpn classmates je but i cant help it!!! i get nervous and i cant think straight. haa pastu tgklah group yg lain2 menari, berlakon la apa semua. and now his turn!!

dorang menari hindustan kekekeke, and dia pulak pakai selendang dkt kepala, dgn action gedik dok menari2 depan, hahaha so cute!! i had the video but tanak post bcs later ill suffer from secondhand embarassment lmao. and yea he danced :) cutely :p and then it was my turn..... i pun menari la kan tapi tak menari habis sbb suruh senior cut lagu welk kalau tak nanti lagi melting um ok

ok pastu dah habis tu dah balik bilik, he ws i cakap, "wehh comelnyaa😍" and i was like diamla diamla diamla lol and he was like "wehh serius comel, geram!" omo loololol. oh and kitorang start chat when i posted a screenshot of our group conversation, he was in it. my friend asked "what shud we bring" utk later orientasi, and guys being guys, said that "bawa hati", "bawa iman", "bawa air", "bawa keikhlasan" and tahu tak dia reply apa? "bawa bertenang" ASHAGSBJAGJGAC sampai skrg ingat balik mesti gelak😂🤣 then i ss benda tu pastu postla dekat status. and guess what? dia reply :) so dari situlah kitorg punya 1st chat. then malam tu dia sesat ke apa tah tak jumpa tempat, and i ws him tanya dkt mana, but note that wktu tu kitorg chat guna aku kau je. so mcm tak sangkala tetiba boleh sangkut dgn dia hm but i never regret that🖤 then dah tak chat, tetiba dia ws tanya i group berapa.

him : weh kau group berapa?
me : 2, kenapa?
me : eh
him : 2 tu aku gila

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA see!!
then ws ws pastu tetiba cemana tah dia suruh i gerak dia utk esok? sebab takut tak bangun. i macam... ??? i tak pernah gerak orang yg i baru kenal lol then dia bagi alasanla cakap rumet dia takde la, alarm tak dengarla since he always sleeps late. then i pun mcm um okayla aku gerak kau. pastu esok tu gerak, baru satu beep je TERUS DIA ANGKAT. nampak tak trick dia? pastu bila i tanya, dia cakap "sebab i tahu you yg call sebab tu terus angkat". hmm then dari situla permulaan kitorang... until now :)

actually banyak lagi nak cakap pasal dia, but well not all things go smoothly just like how we wanted kan? penuh ups and downs dia. sakit tu jgn cakap, memang ada but i hope that all the pains and tears will all be worth it. including you.

so, for you, yes you, yg tengah baca post ni, i love you. yes sayang, you are worth it. worth it to me. i know its going to hurt but lets just keep on walking with me, and explore things together. dont let anyone breaks you. never. you matter, sayang. you do.

and i will always choose you, no matter what happens. ill stay with you, thru thick&thin. and i hope and pray things will go smoothly btw us.

and sayang? please stay.

i love you, S.H,
i will always do xo