hai assalamualaikum everyone :)

before that, i wanted to wish you guys salam jumaat since today is friday hee. may Allah swt bless you and me and grant His blessings in wtv we do. Ameen.

okay. so today, i wanted to talk about someone. who i literally had no idea that he would take so much part in my life? but im glad he did:)

for the first time i saw him in class (yes he's a classmate), id never thought that id be having something with him lol. and i cant remember what was my first impression towards him since i dont really keep my eyes on people unless they bother me lol okay

um he's kinda short? not that short really but he's very petite. just like me :) (yay we both have one common thing now :p) and he doesn't really like to smile? (yep that's really me) and also he has this kind of mysterious vibe?? um idk how to explain lol aaaa i suck at writing  hjdgsjgcfj

ok back to it. i still remember when we had our course orientation with seniors (orientasi yg konon nak merapatkan/berkenalan dgn senior2 lol). waktu tu kan awal2 lagi so macam tak berapa nak rapat. nak tegur pun malu malu taik padahal classmate sampai 3 tahun kot😂 and i still remember when i saw him, it was at night. during one's group introduction. we introduced ourselves and did this cheer song we made by our own (MALUNYA BILA INGAT BALIK AAAAAAAAA). and his group is called "tepu"? hahaha comel la bila ingat balik :p mine was watt 7 -________-

okay and coincidentally he was in the same group with my since-primary-school-friend-siap-duduk-sebelah-sebelah-and-he-even-liked-me-during-that-time🤣 tak sangka langsung sampai kat degree pun ti jumpa hang anas oii. untuk pengetahuan semua, aku dgn anas kawan dari sekolah rendah, pastu masuk smkbj sekali, sama kelas waktu form1 then he moved school, then waktu matriks satu kuliah, different class. AND NOW? classmate balik!! who knew?

um ok why am i talking about anas............. ...

ok back to my main point, him💕. waktu tu orientasi kelas kitorang dalam 3 hari jugak kot? (kan lama kan? over je senior2 ni) ok pastu during the last day, we had to perform in front of our own classmates, with the senior, the whole song. a song was given, and that song was picked randomly kut. dahlah dapat lagu shamsul yusof yang tah pape pastu nak kitorang menari pulak. lainla kalau dapat lagu blackpink in yOUURR AREAAAAA ke bangtan ke boleh la i menari. OH AND ALSO I LEAD THE DANCE HAJSHASJANS ya allah malunya aifaaaa what have you done to yrself😭

then we prepared ourselves, by practicing. i was grouped with wea, nawi, bila😘, tyah and aini. tapi aini demam, tyah balik, so tinggal la aku, bila, nawi dgn wea. haaa elok sangat 4 orang, menari pulak lagu sistar-shake it. taktaula kebetulan ke apa -_____- so dah practice2 tu, kitorang bergerak masuk auditorium. dahlah tempat tu kecik... dgn classmatesnya, dgn seniornya..... quite packed lol. pastu yada yada haaa masuklah turn utk kitorang "perform" depan orang ramai. group i group nombor 7 (that explains the 7 in watt 7 lol). ya auloh, ketar dia jgn cakap. macam nak perform ajl baq hang😂 i know iknow perform dpn classmates je but i cant help it!!! i get nervous and i cant think straight. haa pastu tgklah group yg lain2 menari, berlakon la apa semua. and now his turn!!

dorang menari hindustan kekekeke, and dia pulak pakai selendang dkt kepala, dgn action gedik dok menari2 depan, hahaha so cute!! i had the video but tanak post bcs later ill suffer from secondhand embarassment lmao. and yea he danced :) cutely :p and then it was my turn..... i pun menari la kan tapi tak menari habis sbb suruh senior cut lagu welk kalau tak nanti lagi melting um ok

ok pastu dah habis tu dah balik bilik, he ws i cakap, "wehh comelnyaa😍" and i was like diamla diamla diamla lol and he was like "wehh serius comel, geram!" omo loololol. oh and kitorang start chat when i posted a screenshot of our group conversation, he was in it. my friend asked "what shud we bring" utk later orientasi, and guys being guys, said that "bawa hati", "bawa iman", "bawa air", "bawa keikhlasan" and tahu tak dia reply apa? "bawa bertenang" ASHAGSBJAGJGAC sampai skrg ingat balik mesti gelak😂🤣 then i ss benda tu pastu postla dekat status. and guess what? dia reply :) so dari situlah kitorg punya 1st chat. then malam tu dia sesat ke apa tah tak jumpa tempat, and i ws him tanya dkt mana, but note that wktu tu kitorg chat guna aku kau je. so mcm tak sangkala tetiba boleh sangkut dgn dia hm but i never regret that🖤 then dah tak chat, tetiba dia ws tanya i group berapa.

him : weh kau group berapa?
me : 2, kenapa?
me : eh
him : 2 tu aku gila

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA see!!
then ws ws pastu tetiba cemana tah dia suruh i gerak dia utk esok? sebab takut tak bangun. i macam... ??? i tak pernah gerak orang yg i baru kenal lol then dia bagi alasanla cakap rumet dia takde la, alarm tak dengarla since he always sleeps late. then i pun mcm um okayla aku gerak kau. pastu esok tu gerak, baru satu beep je TERUS DIA ANGKAT. nampak tak trick dia? pastu bila i tanya, dia cakap "sebab i tahu you yg call sebab tu terus angkat". hmm then dari situla permulaan kitorang... until now :)

actually banyak lagi nak cakap pasal dia, but well not all things go smoothly just like how we wanted kan? penuh ups and downs dia. sakit tu jgn cakap, memang ada but i hope that all the pains and tears will all be worth it. including you.

so, for you, yes you, yg tengah baca post ni, i love you. yes sayang, you are worth it. worth it to me. i know its going to hurt but lets just keep on walking with me, and explore things together. dont let anyone breaks you. never. you matter, sayang. you do.

and i will always choose you, no matter what happens. ill stay with you, thru thick&thin. and i hope and pray things will go smoothly btw us.

and sayang? please stay.

i love you, S.H,
i will always do xo

assalamualaikum and hi everyone!


and yes i am home! yayyyyy :D

just until this saturday..... HUWAAAAAAAA I DONT WANT TO GOOOO😢

so far so good about my studies.. lol study ke

biasalah tu kan balik rumah plan nak buat report, buat assignmnt tapi hakikatnya..

KITA HANYA MAMPU MERANCANG *ehem*

anyways, im back at home with butakkk hehehe
whu is butak?

this is butak XD

i know i know shes cute, just like me~

nah achew lanje gambar dengan butak *throwback raya* (make up sakit mata lol) (butak kening mahai)

ehheehe bye!!

assalamualaikum everyone.

do you guys still remember about my last post about upu? guess what?

i got in!! yayyyyyyy
hahaha i got into UMT, Universiti Malaysia Terengganu :)

yep  terengganu. lol far away from home. luckily ive moved from penang to perak, so the journey will be kind of 5 hours? (my friend told me tho)

anyways, i am soooooo beyond grateful for  this opportunity again.. thank you so much, ya Allah. all praises to you. before this, whenever im praying, ill make duas to get the best out of the best. and for this case, im actually hoping to get into UKM haha but He knows better :) and from that, i changed my doa from "berikanlah aku keputusan yg cemerlang" to "berikanlah keputusan yg terbaik untukku". and He granted it.

alhamdulillah, ya Allah. ill shall start anew.

and if i might have the mood or get some ideas or time to update about umt, the places and stuffs, ill post again in another entry.

till then!!!


p/s: wish me luck guys!! (semoga Nurul 'Aifaa Alia bt. Abd Rahman berjaya di dunia&akhirat, Ameen)

hai assalamualaikum everyone.

its been a veeeeeeeeery loooonnggg time since my last post *insert laugh emoji*
i know i know. i just lack of motivations to write. <------ one of the reasons why mum said that im the type to study halfway. you know tahi tahi ayam? <---- and one of the reasons why i only studied halfway thru on chinese, japanese and korean language.. ha ha ha

but i can speak korean tho. a bit :p and im proud of it *wink*
anyways the real reason that im actually writing this is because i wanted to talk about my cgpa. yep.
i screwed up real bad. and i felt bad for screwing up.. ofc id feel bad! i mean, who wont? i know most of yall in school will feel like "nah thats normal". yes i know. i feel that too and i used to be like you guys. tomorrow's exam day and im here watching kpop, learning new dances because its school!!!

but here in college, everything is different. very different. you have to compete in almost everything, and this is where i um whats the suitable word to insert here eyyyy ok i know. i fcked up. yep. my father advised me before entering college that i should be studying harder so that things wont happen again. what is? me not getting straight As for PMR (cried like hell that day lol), not getting straight As for SPM (was cool bcs i wasnt expecting anything) (expectation kills) and this, i ruined my cgpa..

and i had the nerve nOT TO TELL MY PARENTS ABOUT IT. omgggg forgive me mother for i have sinned T^T but i didnt want to disappoint you guys with my results because i believed that i still have my 2nd semester and i wanted to prove that i can do better.

but i was wrong :( i still fked up my cgpa and thats the end of it. on the day of the upu results, i sent a text and 15 mins later, i got a text back, saying that i didnt get any place in the upu. i was sad, devastated, idk. but definitely not that sad. with that kind of pointer, heck ofc i knew where id belong. mum asked me how did it go, and i couldnt help but to tell her the truth. and yes, she was speechless. no words came out. and dad's reaction wins, "that's it?" and mum asked me whats my pointer andddddd there you go, spill the tea a l r e a d y. i told her only few and she said "no wonder you dont have any place in upu". i know mum, cant help but to be a disappointment.

ohh how i missed my standard 5 life.. where i succeeded in almost everything. sports? you name it. academics? heck i was the top in the whole batch. gold times.. if only i have the power to turn back time, thats it. i just need some source of powerful magic or magician that can help to turn back time and i can make things right. mum and dad would be proud of me.

yada yada enuf with the rants. gotta go now. adios!

hi!!!!

ha ni ha ain ni

lolol sapa taktau lagi 'ain apa boleh rujuk gambarajah di atas XD

Assalamualaikum semua.

Hi!!!

Okay first of all, lama gila tak tulis. Rasa macam taktau nak tulis apa tapi nak tulis lmao. Dont know how or why i decided to write heheh. So hello semua :)

malam ni rasa macam nak tulis pasal something tapi taktau benda apa. Hmm... ok i know what



LET ME TALK ABOUT THIS SPECIAL LITOL FLOWER

CALLED DALIA. there there. nampak tak sebelah tu yg muka macam bunga tu? lmao sorry but yu look cute tho mew.


whats so special about her? hmm let me think.....lmao jkjk ok dia ni special la jugak. ok special fine sebab satu, homework tak siap, hang cari dia. pasaipa? bukan sebab hang nak menyedut homework dari dia. pasai dia pun takkan siap homework tu so hang ada geng. ok satu. kedua is diani kaki tidoq. apa pun masalah yang ada satu ja dia ti suruh, "get some rest" which means sleep for me. "sleep" which is obviously sleep. see? and third, deni gila. ok dia boleh masuk dengan aku.

first impression aku kat dia is "deni awat spect mata besaq nak mampuih" lmao iM SORRY BUT THATS WHAT CAME ON MY MIND and dia jugak yg duduk sebelah aku time asimilasi english. and her english like wow ok not bad uhuh (okay i judged people so what)

kalau nak cerita panjang sangat la pulak letih tangan hm takpe later i sambung ok demi bunga huhu

chill guyS SABAR LA LATER AKU SAMBUNG OK Ok oK ok

um

ok bye